You know I’m
really in need of blogging things and stuffs and feelings right now. Things are
just going clearer in a way they are happening so vague. I don’t know if I
should stop being so kind to the people who abuse my kindness, you know I don’t
want to act so kind and pretend to like a person who secretly hates me and who
keeps making rumours about me. I know I don’t deserve to be hated, like, I’m
not a popular girl in school who have
their haters because people couldn’t just accept the fact that they can’t be
like them. You know, talking about a person makes them more popular whether you
accept the fact or not you’re hating them because you can’t be like them, it’s
either she’s prettier, smarter, taller, skinnier, fairer, popular, a class favorite,
a public figure, or whatsoever. Whether you’re talking bad or good things about
a person you’re making him/her famous and it makes you look more of a hater a
bitter hater and if I’ll be the one who’s
listening to you it will make me think that you really are jealous to that
person because you’re making other people believe about negative things about
the person who is a lot better than you that she/he is someone who doesn’t
deserve to be admired which DOESN’T make you a better person, which doesn’t
make you prettier, smarter, or Filipina in a way that when you backstab someone
whom you think is a flirt it will make you be a preserved Filipina lady. Whether you’re talking bad or good things
behind my back it’s making me famous whatever what would people think, and with
that you’re making me a favor.
I’m not angry, I’m
just sad. You know I could be really sarcastic to my friends because if I do it
just proves that I’m comfortable being with them, but I’m that kind of friend
that would defend & help you in times of trouble I may not be there
always but I won’t never let you down. If I’m your friend expect that I won’t
talk behind your back because I don’t consider myself to be your friend if I’m
not worth to be your friend as simple as that. I could hate what my friends
hate, because they’re my friends, but despite of that I don’t consider myself
hating people for a purpose like for making other person look you down because
you’re that high and I’m just these so I should talk behind you so people will
not like you.
I’m a friend who
loves to be loved, who loves to be with a friend when I feel that that particular
friend of mine loves me too. I don’t want fights, it makes me feel unwanted
that’s why as much as possible instead of giving attention to those bad things
done to me by my friend and make a big deal out of it that will obviously and
eventually create a gap between me and my friend I will really try to clear
things up. I hate being pushed to my limits, because I hate being angry to a
friend.
I hope people
should be brave as much as they sound so fierce and true and angelic (as they
think) when they back stab a person. They should be brave enough to tell it
directly to that certain person they’re talking about. Because if that person
keeps saying things indirectly it’s a hundred percent sure you’re hatin’
because they’re rollin. I don’t want to sound bad in telling you about these, I
just want to burst out. I don’t hate that person for not liking me but I hate
that person for not telling it to me directly. When you don’t like someone you
don’t have to share that to the whole wide world, you could just keep that keep
that to yourself if you don’t have enough courage to tell it directly to the
person. You just can’t hate a person because you’re jealous, but if you do,
keep it to yourself.
Im thankful
because I have my friends who’s there, whenever I’m bad. You know guys, there
is no such fake friend because is shes fake well then, shes not your friend. We
are not born to please people, so we
don’t have to change ourselves for people to like us, we don’t have to fit in
always. Remember, we are made different from each other, that’s why we need to
love and respect our differences.
All I want to
say is that things should happen the way that would make us happy because no
matter hard we try, we cant please people. Whether you’ve done a good or a bad
thing people will make an issue against you, out of it and second I wanna say, I love my friends very much that I couldn’t just get angry to them. I know as for now, things will be as normal as usual. As casual
as before. I know this time I spent time explaining myself to no one but to you
who’s reading this. They said I should ignore the things that makes me sad, but
not this time. Not an issue with a person who has a special spot in my heart.
You know I love you, I do. I hope I didn’t worsen the things that were supposed
to be ignored. Now I’m happy because I don’t have to suffer the burden that was
not supposed to be taken too seriously. Im thankful I shared this to you and
you listened. I hope we’re fine. I love you.
Truly
yours,
Chaeny
xx
