You're the man!

Amaaaaazing huge burger for four. Delicious!

 Handsome, smart, kind, outrageous, sweet, humorous & lovable, these are why I wont hesitate spending my lifetime with him. 

 He was once the man of my dreams, but not anymore, he is now my man in reality. Who would be luckier if God realize your dream guy, like making this specific guy posses all the qualities I wanted my man to have and molded into one person. 

 He is the one who treated me so well. He is the most gentle loving guy I know, its like Ive known him a lifetime because I'm so comfortable with him, I could do things that I usually and normally do with my friends, I've been so natural and I dont have to act like somebody else trying to please him because he makes me feel that I dont need to do so. 

 I will never get tired of hearing him say " Iloveyou ", nor getting tired of feeling his awesome love. 

 After we both had a long day at school, we wandered for a while and grabbed a bite at Drift Shift. Cool and refreshing environment because it is not the typical restaurant the chairs are built from car parts and the best part is that they have really delicious foods! 

Haaaay, another day well spent with him (though everyday is extra special when he is around), welcome to the legit world baby hahahaha. ;)

I love you so much, let us study harder, lets be healthy, we cant die young. Happy birthday! 

-chaeny-

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Dilemma //

I’m really afraid of losing things I know I own, there are a lot of things I whisper through the air wishing air could just blow it away. Things I wish will never happen. There are things that we treasure and we value so much, and in giving so much love to these things we are ready to sacrifice everything even our own happiness, pride and freedom. I’m ready to suffer any pain, just to make sure that it will not be someone I love who will suffer from it.

Moments somehow help us to be stronger, but sometimes no matter how hard I try not to see things in a different way. it’s just me, I can’t blame myself for being like this,  though denying this feeling is not a problem but everytime things like this happen I really don’t like the things I am thinking about or the even the way I think. Even though I already feel this and trying to ignore this is not easy and painful, I’m really trying to endure it all alone because I don’t want you to suck at understanding me because I myself believes that I’m really unpredictable, I may act the opposite of what I’m really thinking. 

I know I seem to mess things up, but instead of helping me regain myself and fix all the mess you're helping me mess up, I actually think, you love messing up too. I hate to deny what I feel because I don’t want you to feel bad about yourself, I mean I don’t want you to think that you are the problem, because honestly I know, I am. I’m too bad, not to trust you. That’s why for you not to think about it, I keep what I feel to myself and pretend that I’m okay even though I’m friggin not okay.

"Never give up." This is what it should be, because I know we feel the same. But I’m in turmoil most of the times trying to think what is happening is too much that I already need space and that this should end as soon as possible, but all of the people around is enough pressure for me not to think that way. It’s just a sort of paranoia which is really not good. I hate to think about losing things, really.

Im still confused if Im supposed to tell things to people.

To tell or not to tell?

-chaeny-